Journey to the South of Germany.

Just got back from the journey to the south of germany last night and i have lots of stories to share but im gonna take it slow ;p only left few days before i leave this beautiful country.

I have been in Germany for almost 5 weeks now. As i mention in my previous entry, i am living with the pharmacist’s family in Stadtoldendorf. It is more to the north of Germany. It is nearer to Berlin instead of Munchen or Stuttgart.

The only place i really want to see in Germany is Bayern Munich or they call it here Munchen. Munchen is located in the district of Bayern and it is the main city for Bayern region. The other place i really want to be is in Stuttgart but not because of the city , its because the National Social Programme is in Stuttgart. Tomeet up with new friends from different part of the world had always been my interest.In order to travel around Germany in any direction,south, north , east or west all you have to do is take the train. It is easy and comfortable.

It is expensive if you travel with the fast train but they have lots of offers and what you need to do is just search for it and buy the ticket early. At first according to the budget i only can travel to one place. Its either Stuttgart or Munich. To be in Munich is my choice but luckily i got to travel to both. If i buy ticket without offer and i buy it on the spot, it will cost me 200 euro (~RM800+) to travel to Munchen and return. Since i bought the ticket earlier and i take some slow train; i manage to cut the travel cost to 162euro  and i can travel from Stadtoldendorf-stuttgart-Deggendorf.

Stadtoldendorf – Stuttgart                71,50 euro (fast train:IC)

Stuttgart – Deggendorf                       49,00 euro (fast train:ICE)

Deggendort- Stadtoldendort            42, 00 euro (slow train, offer tickets)

The price for the fast train is actually offers price cause i bought the ticket early.If not it will be more expensive. If you really read what i wrote here you might be wondering why the cost is a lot more cheaper when i travel back to Stadtoldendorf from Deggendorf. This is because i used the Quer-durchs-land ticket. This ticket is valid for the whole day from 9am-3am and you can travel anywhere in Germany using slow/region trains and busses. The downside of this ticket is, you will be in the train for the whole day and you will change train frequently. Check here for more information: http://www.bahn.de

Thanks to my dear aunt :)

PHOTO: this is how the ticket bought from Fahrkarten looks like.

Hey wait.. where is Munich? LOL.

Lets back up a little bit. My friend Faiq is living in Deggendorf which is one hour away from Munich by car. So the reason why  i really want to be in Munchen is that, i able to visit my friend in Deggendorf and also go to my favourite city in Germany.I’m killing two birds with one stone people!

Since Deggendorf is in the Bayern district, i can travel to Munchen using group tickets which cost us 29,00 euro. We were lucky cause we don’t have to split the ticket cost into 2, cause on the way to Munchen and old man wanted to travel together with us and he paid 10 euro for the ticket. At first we wanted to travel by car but since Munchen is a big city, we might caught up in the traffic. So we took the train which is better.

I will tell the details more with a specific entry. This entry will only give brief overview of the whole 6 days of travel in the south of Germany.

22nd –24th July 2011 – National Social Programme in Stuttgart.

24th – 27th July 2011 – Deggendorf, Munchen

Actually i don’t just stop at Munchen, we travelled further south by car and that is the best place within the 6 days of journey to the south of Germany. Its like a fairy tale land. I will let you know what that place is in the next entry.

So stay tune cause photos will be in the next entry.

Bye for now!

A Train Station is known as Bahnhof in Deutsch.

So i did a little walk today in Stadtoldendorf. I finished work at 12.30pm , done with mittag (mid-day) lunch at about 2.30pm. We grilled today. As it was sunny and its not raining when we were grilling. Unfortunately, after lunch and i was about to get ready to go for a walk in a beautiful sunny day, it starts to rain. Picked up the cloths from the line and i gave out a loud sigh.

Ohh my day didn’t go as i planned. So, i get back to my zimmer (room). Cehh its not my zimmer. Its Hope’s actually. I am staying with my host family. Remember? duhh.. lol..

Was thinking of helping out in the Apotheke (pharmacy) but i think there’s nothing much i can help. Actually I’m a bit frustrated with the weather that is why i feel like doing nothing.

Anyway, lucky me again, the sun start to shine right after i finished seeing a movie: Quarantine 2. So i quickly get ready and head out for a walk. I was waiting like a week to go out and explore. It was around 5 when i went out.

As usual i made a pit stop at Cafe Juno for a cup of cappuccino. Wanted to eat sandwiches but i cant understand the menu hahahaha ;p I think I’m better in French when it comes to ordering food ;p Maybe i was in Belgium before and i went out alone and get my lunch at restaurant around the Grand Place.

Well, after i had my wonderful cappuccino i was thinking to go to the railway station just to get some information on how to go to Stuttgart. On 22-24th July 2011 i will have a weekend in Stuttgart with other student exchange from Poland, Czech Republic and i don’t who else. Since Stadtoldendorf is far away from Stuttgart i need to plan it accordingly if i were to attend the National Social Programme weekend.

So i was walking to find this railway station and i got distracted by a buliding. Without a clue i just walk towards the building and i was so interested in it cause it looks like a castle. Well its not a castle exactly but i looks like one ;p

Anyway, i was wondering what’s up with this building. In front of it i saw a banner hanging saying something like happy 70th birthday? “Hurra Hurra bla2.. vati..70th Jehr”

It is in german ofcourse. I think its something like Hoorey hoorey! ..70th Year old”

Nahh see im good hahahahahaha..kidding people..im kidding.

Anyway, when i walked a bit closer and i finally go like:

“Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this is the Bahnhof and i was actually looking for it”

“hey but wait, where is the counter where are the people?”

Then i saw a machine. Oh no wonder there is no people and no wonder the building look so sad and gloomy. Oh the machine got language in English..hahaha.. Oh as u can see in the picture below, the red one is the machine for the ticket..and there is a bicycle parking behind it. Cool huh.. here they can just ride bicycle. I remembered as i was on the Journey from Amsterdam to Belgium i saw the place is full of bicycles! Hundreds of them parking near the station ;p

So done with Bahnhof i thought of walking somewhere else just to explore more of Stadtoldendorf but unfortunately as i start walking it the sky is getting grey indicating that its going to rain. So i had to walk back home before it starts raining heavily. Just nice as i reach home just before the rain really start to pour from the sky like the sky is crying ;p

well where the hell is me in those pictures? lol.. what to do when you are all alone exploring.. Luckily camera is built with self-timer lol..u just need a good place to put your camera ;p

p/s: hah..im not sure to choose for tomorrow activity..to go into the woods to search for mushroom with Mr Wendt or go to Hannover with Marry.. both also i’m interested.. actually i kinda looking forward for the mushroom thingy..i like the woods and the environment.. hah..maybe i let the weather for tomorrow judge for me.

A special thank you note.

Greetings from Germany, 22:10; 04/July/2011.

Well since i got a little bit time before i call it a night. I just want to let this out from my heart cause I am really grateful and Alhamdulillah i think 2010/2011 had been just very great.

nahh the cherries not ripe yet but it is already sweet ;p

Thanks to my lovely aunt, cause she makes my second trip to Europe region a reality AGAIN. She did it the first time and i had wonderful times (Holland, Paris,Belgium) here in Europe (2008) and got to know and meet up with my relatives in Isle of Wight and Colchester in United Kingdom. Now for the second time she actually sponsored me the flight for my Student Exchange Programme and not just that ;p. Thanks to my beloved parents (especially the shoes ;p) for their support and to my dear professor, Prof. Yuen Kah Hay for his kind help in chipping in some pocket money to me.

Not to forget Herr (Mr.) Michael Wendt and his family for taking me in as a guest at his house and let me experience the feeling of working in an Apotheke (pharmacy). I had great times and experience lots of things this first week in Stadtoldendorf, Germany.

Thanks to MyPSA for giving me the chance to join this programme together with another 5 students (the seats are limited). Im in germany, Hong Huei in Croatia, Mei Kian in Poland, Apip in Taiwan and another 2 im not sure where they are. Thans IPSF.

Thanks to BPhd Germany for accepting my request (i put germany the first choice for exchange and i got it.lucky me)

Trust me without their support and help i wont be in Europe now and be having  my Student Exchange Programme a reality. It need hell lots of money to just fly over to Europe let alone staying here for roughly 7 weeks.

Well anyway god knows how much i appreciate those who directly and indirectly been there supporting me in so many kind of ways.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

p/s:

Dear God, I knew that somehow the rainbow will show up after rain. Forgive for all the sins that i made and You knew what the best for my life.Thank you. Alhamdulillah.

rewind: persiapan sebelum pergi Europe.

Asyik- asyik cakap English je kan..hari ni aku malas nak type English.. Nak cakap Bahasa Melayu pulak.

gambar: aku ambik masa tgh fly.

Sementara aku tengah tunggu parti keluarga angkat aku ni mula, aku pun terfikir la nak buat entri ni. Sebenarnya sebelum pergi hari tu aku nak tulis entri ni. Tapi apa kan daya kemalasan menguasai diri.

Sejujurnya aku tak prepare sangat nak ke Europe ni. Sebabnya aku sibuk dekat lab. Lepas habis exam, aku balik Kuantan sekejap. Jengah rumah tercinta , tak sampai seminggu aku dah di Penang semula. Aku sibuk dengan research untuk final year plus busy dengan Green Lung.

So balik tak balik ke Kuantan sebelum pergi tu, ada la 3 hari sebelum bertolak. Aku sempat rembat sepasang kasut, tukar duit Euro dan packing. Kasut sangat penting sebabnye aku nak berjalan jauh (ingat aku ada kereta ngan motor ke kat Europe?), cuaca yang sejuk(mahu beku kaki kalau tak pakai kasut).

Pejam celik dah kena berangkat. Sebenarnye, makin dekat nak ke Europe semakin malas aku nak bergerak ke mana-mana. Awal-awal masa dapat tahu terpilih pergi je aku rasa excited. Lepas pada tu aku buat tak tau je.

Tapi dah sampai sini, not bad la. Haha. Just oh amat sejuk dan aku tak suka. If sejuk tanpa hujan takpa (aku suka) tapi ni sejuk+hujan tu yang tak suka tu. Aku lagi suka hujan dekat Malaysia, nak mandi hujan pun aku suka. Tapi dekat sini maaflah, jangan harap aku nak mandi hujan. Sejuk tahap ghaban aku cakap.Ni aku pakai 4 lapis baju pun masih sejuk. (tengah hujan ni)

Ok la..aku pun dah naik malas taip, sebab rasa tangan aku cam beku. Sejuk cam ais. Hari ni cuaca sangat sejuk dan aku agak tak tahan hari ni and parti tu dekat luar. Tadi aku lepak-lepak jap, aku duk dekat area unggun api (parti cam ala BBQ). Mula ok, lepas tu pergh datang hujan terus..aaa tak tahan..tapi aku nak duduk dekat luar. hahaha tapi makin ramai orang kat situ dan aku malas nak duk tayang muka. (sebab aku tak pandai cakap sebenarnya)

Ada orang yang nak borak tapi soalnye aku ni tak pandai ckp German dan orang tu pun tak pandai cakap English. So hadap la jadi observer professional. Haha.Better than nothing kan?

ok bye2..

Tak larat dah.

p/s: aku sayang gila kasut ni!  sbb tu gambar byk hahaha..kompem bertahun kasut ni dengan aku ;p

A Simple Day in Stadtoldendorf

Today was much better since I’m slowly picking more and more words. I can read and understand some of the words in a sentence. In fact i can read a sentence but might not fully understand every words. I can understand few words and try guessing what’s the whole meaning through expression and body language featured from their body languages.

Learned new things today in the Apotheke (pharmacy). Documentation and recording. Well you guys might say “nahh its just documentation, what’s the deal?”  It is a big deal when you are dealing system which is totally in a different language. You will feel like you are lost somewhere that you never been before.

Well its not that tough as i picked up some words along the way. Now at least i can operate those system better compared from the first time i was exposed to it. I was clueless when i first saw it. Even the keyboard is different from those in Malaysia (i cant show of my speed in typing LOL). Let alone the system which totally in Deutsch. Nahh but thanks to Ricarda she tried her best to help me. Both of us keep on looking into the dictionary. I was translating English to Deutsch and she search the other way around.

As usual making creams and ointments. At least i can get the hang of weighing the stoff (substance). Look i starting to spell it in German. Doink! But I’m still no good in compounding. I got a feeling working with DNA and extraction from blood plasma is much more easier. I dont know maybe because its something that I’m really interested in or i understand what Kak Yanti is teaching me. Its my fault cause cant be able to talk in German. Doink me again! Ya but anyway,I’m regretting for not taking dosage form seriously. Here, the faster you make the creams, ointments or any other preparation it means money. Although we don’t need this skill in Malaysian’s community pharmacy but I’m happy to learn it. In German or any other country that are still practicing extemporaneous preparation, the skills and speed in compounding is highly needed.

Well above all, today i learn more and more and i understand better cause I’m picking up words. Atleast now when Ricarda tell me something, from 5 words in a sentence i can understand 3-4 words. Well that if only i come across that word before through reading and listening and guessing. Thanks to Mary and Angelika for teaching me some of the words.

Bought myself a book today. Its in Deutsch. Well its actually from one of my favourite author, Nora Roberts. I was amazed to see its in Deutsch. Later, im gonna grab myself one which published in French. I learn faster through this way. Oh its not easy. Trust me. yeah but nothing is easy in life so just gonna figure it out how to understand the whole book. Learning from a book, you will know how to use the words in context (rather than depending on dictionary all the time). Watching and listening to TV or music it helps you to pronounce and learn the slang and how your tone should be when you say it.

That is how i pick up my English. Well don’t ask me about Grammar. I’m lost. It is like a jungle to me. I made up my sentence based on what i feel correct (in other words sounds correct).

Well I’m babbling  again.

Lets get back to the main reason i wrote this entry today.

I was going to show you guys some pictures of today.

Markt Apotheke, place i work in the morning.

area where i scan the items that arrive in the morning.

5.00pm: went to a coffee house and trying to translate the book that i just bought ;p

party preparation: Herr & Frau (Mr. and Mrs) Wendt : Mr wendt & Marry

Klaus making a Tandoori ;p

Seyma and Hope

Vincent and Roman

It actually more than this. I’m not gonna tell everything here. Doink. I’m lazy to update cause its bedtime. I gotta work tomorrow and gosh i wanna be early cause i wanna do as much work as i can and ofcourse to play with Die Katze (the cat) downstairs.

Tadaaa! Meet my muchkin – this cat keep me going everyday!

OH Shit i forgot to take a picture of him!

Show you guys later.

Nite peeps! Gute Nacth!

Guten Morgen to Malaysians!

Its 12.15am in German (oh ya guten morgen too LOL) and 6.10am in Malaysia!

Out-

Priceless experience in Markt Apotheke.

Two days working at Markt Apotheke (well only for half day everyday) already proven how differ it is the community pharmacy setting in Malaysia from the German’s.

German’s community pharmacy setting is well established. They have the ordering and purchasing system which is very systematic. The delivery system of medicinal products from the wholesalers are efficient and fast which comes in the morning and afternoon. These wholesalers are link to all the pharmacy in German (if I’m not mistaken) or maybe according to area.

Apart from the efficiency and systematic ordering and purchasing system, Markt Apotheke still compounds creams, emulsion, ointments (salbe) and medicinal wine. Today i had been thought on how to make ointments and cream. This is one of the biggest differences between a pharmacy in Malaysia and German. In Malaysia, so far that i know, there is no community pharmacy that practice extemporaneous compounding. If there is a pharmacy which provide this kind of service in Malaysia,please let me know cause i intend to become an intern to improve my compounding skills.

We (pharmacy students) learnt dosage form back in the first year which we make suppositories, emulsions, creams, ointments, suspensions, tablets, injections and suspensions but now i hardly remember it. We only do it like once or twice  due to time limitation during our first year. I do remember the little-by-little, aseptic technique, oil in water , water in oil and bla bla bla but when it comes to real practice dang! It is not as simple as that. Due to communication barrier i cant really try my best in Markt Apotheke because most of the time I’m trying to pick up the words and worrying about the language instead of focusing on what I’m doing. The PTA, Kara if I’m not mistaken(i dont know how to spell her name) tried her best to help me and its nice of her and it makes me sad and feel sorry and mad at myself for not being able to talk to her in German.

My skills in compounding is bad. Back then i was better. What a waste isn’t it? Its like after you graduated you are only equip with theoretical informations. In germany extemporaneous preparation is a must for a pharmacist to know. They are experts on herbs which makes them the chef of medicinal preparation. With their knowledge on herbs they can prepare lots of medicinal preparations to suit people need. I believe this is what a pharmacist should be in the first place. Unfortunately my love is still for research and development in the industry. Totally in different area of being a pharmacist.

Oh yeah talking about the difference, the obvious difference is of course the dispensing rights.

This issue has been in debate for many years. Doctors in Malaysia are given rights to dispense drugs themselves from their clinic. In a private clinic no pharmacist is needed there. Which come to a big question, what are the function of producing lots of pharmacist in Malaysia. They end up opening a pharmacy which is not systematic according to my opinion. I’m lost when it comes to the role of pharmacist in Malaysia. Maybe that is why I am more into Industry cause i can see what effects can i give towards the public. If i were to end up in the hospital I’m not sure i will become a good pharmacist or not. Luckily i have the chance to experience community pharmacy setting in Markt Apotheke, Stadtoldendorf , German. It brings a good experience and change my point of view towards what a community pharmacy can do. I know the theory of role of pharmacist but then i cant see how does it apply in Malaysian setting. Perhaps later once i got my licence i can open a pharmacy shop which follow the guidelines made by the European.

Anyway, in Europeans country, the doctor does not have the right to dispense drug. All they can do is write a prescription and the patient will bring the prescription (rezept) to the pharmacy(apotheke). The cost mostly will be covered by insurance.

I remembered that a research is carried out to make insurance system for Malaysians. I was helping distributing the questionnaire with a face-to-face method. Most Malaysians don’t agree with that system. Well that is another problem. haha

The way how the pharmacy in Europe operate especially the ordering (bestellung) and managing system. I believe with this kind of system there will be zero dispensing error and it will be cost-effective. Below is from an article from The Star Newspaper:

“Community pharmacies are much like a personal store in Malaysia. Rarely will you witness patients requesting their medication to be made based on the prescriptions given by fellow doctors.

Why is Malaysia’s pre-registration training for pharmacy graduates restricted to only hospital and industrial settings? What about the community pharmacy sector?

What does the future hold for the future of pharmacists in Malaysia? When will the dispensing right be given fully to community pharmacists?”

The way they store their medicines is super-duper-systematic and they keep tract of every products with just a simple scan and click. They do not store many boxes of medicines and they purchased enough stocks for the used everyday.This is definitely cost effective. This is very different from Malaysia. In Malaysia, from what i can see most of the medicines in a pharmacy is in a bulk quantity which i strongly believe it is not practical at all.

First it is a waste since not all medications will be sell due to our dispensing right issue. Secondly bad storage management (products by in a bulk, cant be sell, expiry date is near).

ahh to make it simple. Its a bad business. This is not due to the pharmacist false entirely. Its just there is no specific regulations for community pharmacist as what in German’s have. No harm though to try to open a pharmacy according to the European guidelines. As long the public is being protected from harm and the pharmacy business is cost-effective i think it would be good. Apart from that, the wholesaler’s system is not directly link to a pharmacy as what the pharmacy in German’s are having. I wish i could know more about it and discuss it but im not good in their language so all i can do now is observe.

I really admire the way the system runs. Which i think it would benefit the human life.

If there is a pharmacy in Malaysia which follow this guideline perhaps one day they can become a benchmark in Malaysia. Dream big people!

ahh im tired already.

gute nacht!

Danke Shon Mr Michael Wendt and the people in Markt Apotheke

i hate myself.dummy.silly.

Guten Tag! (good day)

Ich bin Elyana (i am Elyana)

Wie heissen Sie? (what is your name)

Froet mich! (nice to meet you)

dang!

That’s the only thing i can really say with confident. Gosh!  Today, I feel like shit. I don’t know. I just feel like I’m useless. I hate when i can’t do something correctly just because of a simple thing: COMMUNICATION BARRIER. Now it is not so simple right?

PICTURE: The Idiot= Me (Elyana Yazmin)

Well I’m not suppose to be upset since I knew it will come to this. I ask for it anyway (I’m not regretting!).oh what i didn’t expect is the computer system would be in German. Well that’s just an excuse. I’m just upset today. So, please just give me a space to be sad and will start fresh tomorrow. I feel stupid. Computer: something which i’m good at it suddenly I turn out to be a dummy.

What’s upsetting is i bought this book which suppose to help my German language but guess what that book is useful for tourist. The problem is I’m not here just to sightseeing and i totally missed that out. Now i need to find a book : German for confident Pharmacist. Oh not to forget. I love kids!!!! and i cant play with them since i don’t know how to speak the language. Damn me once again. But it feels good when they smile at me. At least i know that indirectly they understand me. Children are pure and i love them a lot.

I’m so upset with myself and it is killing me! My mood is just not right. I’m not cheerful at all. All i wanted to do is help but due to my incapability to talk and communicate, i end up helping nothing.

Well its not that bad but i just feel useless and i feel like i am a total dumb-ass.

Ok please forgive me but I just HATE MYSELF RIGHT NOW. So this entry wont be full of photos of Germany and what-so-ever.

AGAIN. I HATE MYSELF.

 

ok enough of being such a spoil-brat, complaining-ass and start new tomorrow ya!

Good Luck To Me ! yeah!

facebook: thousands miles away yet near to the heart

Currently in KLIA waiting for my flight. Took a flight from Kuantan Airport to KLIA and arrived around 8++pm. Having my dinner.Waiting for the flight to Amsterdam at 11.55pm. duhh boorring ;p

So basically will be going to Amsterdam first and once i arrive i need to get myself a train called Thalys to Brussels.(I will take some pictures and put it here later). As i said in my previous entry my aunt lives in Brussels. My aunt already moved to another place and will not be staying at the apartment that i once stayed.
nothing much to say except for my packing and 2 days before my departure to Europe. Will be updating time to time about my journey in Europe. Please pray for me that i can get internet connection once im in German this 29th June. My aunt will drive me there from Brussels.
Whats up with the entry tittle ? huh? huh?
Naahh..
Its funny actually.
Come to think of it. I’ve been to UK and Europe before but at that time i felt, wow! i’m far away from home. The only way i stay connected to My family and y friends are Yahoo Messenger and Emails.Gosh i really feel like..oh we need to like set an appointment to chat or video call . What about Facebook ?
I went there around 2007 i think. Im not sure at that time i got Facebook account or not..i think i got the account but at that time i hate using Facebookcause its damn complicated (which now actually the main medium i used to communicate with friends family).
Today as i was in the car on the way to the airport. This thought came to my mind and i straight away ask my father.
“ Papa, that time when i was in Belgium, do i have facebook?”
Then i started reminiscing the old days and  was like..wow! that time i didnt use Facebook at all.
so its kinda interesting to know that now i felt easy to be in touch and to get connected wherever you an whenever you want it.
Thanks Facebook. you make the distance not an impossible way to stay connected.

I cant update much now. and WLW seems not to be working in KLIA ;p
Got to go and check in.
Bye!
See You soon!

master of none.

Weird right? How i can involved in lots of things but never a master at anything except for being a master holder of Master of None at the University of Nothing-hamm?

I don’t freaking understand myself. Each time i look at someone else's life, I will start to have this all kinds of feelings. Its killing me. Jealous? yup a bit. In a good way not in a-bad-way-of-jealousy.

Its not that i don’t want to really get involve and be a master at something. Its just.. i never could. I wonder why..

My sister got a thing for music and she’s great at playing Piano and its her hobby. Unfortunately i don’t have the time to attend piano classes since I’m in a boarding school since form 1. I hardly went home for holidays.

I got a thing for sport and athletics way back in primary and secondary school. I was a hockey player when I’m in standard 4,5 and 6. I was in Scouts and got my lencana keris emas. Camping was like my expertise. Being a prefect in standard 5 and 6 was like a bad-ass! we were like the taiko of the school! awesome! ;p oh please take note..im kinda boyish back then ;p

An athlete for my lower secondary school when i was in form 1,2 and 3. I was in Persatuan Bulan Sabit Merah and police cadet . Lots of achievement back then especially when it comes to camping. I was one of the athlete in my school and represent my state. My academic was terrific. I knew whats the meaning of pure love, first love at 14teen though never told him about it. Life was fun and full of joy. I was somehow free and i was like flying and soaring high in the sky. That is how i feel my life was when i was in SMK Seri Kuantan. Oh how much i miss it . Simple and easy life. Not complicated at all.

Form 4 and 5? I kinda stop sports since my new school don’t really practice sports for girls except for basketball and hockey. Why don’t i join the hockey team? back to the title of the entry. I’m a master of none. I had mastered hockey for primary school and didnt practice it for years and now you are asking me to join the hockey team? naaahhh forget it.

Form 4 was a total doom ( i kept looking back at my old school, was struggling very hard fighting with my own feelings to go back but as usual i cant). Form 5 I’m active in persatuan such as UNESCO and prefect board and got this freaking amazing friends. Awww i love them so much!

Actually the best days during my school times is when I’m in primary and lower secondary school. After that, life just turns out dull. BUT as life always has this magical thing called when u lost something u gain something else in return.

What i get in return for abandoning sports is Salwa Hanim, Piju and Tan as my BFF hahahha besides a total different environment to live in compare to my old school.  Actually its more than that. Its not that i don’t appreciate my friends in the old school but you gotta admitit.. those which we are closed to during form 4 and form 5 will most likely be the best one to talk too later on. Form 1,2, and 3 they are friends but we kinda lost topic when we get together.

See! up to that i already join all kinds of things but still I’m not a master at anything.

Matriculation was a total isolation period. I was in a serious relationship. Somehow i was in my own world. It ends as soon the matriculation session is over. Simply because status issue? duhh. SAD. i had my sad-sulking-crying period and got over it. Oh! this is not the semester-ends-break-up style  alright. He was in polytechnic doing some programme.

Degree?

Mostly my degree life can be seen through my silly blog. first year was awesome. Second year is a drama. Third year was a survival and splendid. Hold various position and still not master at any. pfft..idiot me.heh. Doing great in research. Fun in the sense my hardwork paid off. Results getting better and better.Projects are coming in.Fourth year (final year)  is on the way.Somehow there are whole here and there in the blog( and my heart too) due to time constraints, mood issue and also other responsibilities that i need to take care off. I’m getting older and life getting tougher. When i get a free time i just wanna rest.

Blogging is something at first for fun, after then its a get-away-from-problem gate, then it got serious and a passion, i was actually planning to be a master at it since I’m not a master at anything yet. Unfortunately, i started busy with my real life and it all goes back to the title of this entry; MASTER OF NONE.

end of story.

p/s:

I’m just frustrated cause i don’t know what I’m good at… I mean really 2x good at… hmmm

Europe Again!

Excited? at first yes but now..not really.. maybe cause I’m not really prepared. 

“What the hell that you need to prepare besides your luggage?”

i wish i could just prepare my luggage and set off for Europe. Unfortunately, I’m going to Europe again but this time it is for Student Exchange Programme and. I just wont go there without preparing myself with proper information especially on drugs (medicines). I’m a future pharmacist and suppose to be the experts on drugs. Shame on me if I’m not well equipped with drugs information. Especially when i need to spent time (around 1 month) in Stadtoldendorf, Germany in an ‘Apotheke’ or known as pharmacy for attachment under the supervision of Mr Wendt, the pharmacist. He was kind enough to let me stay with his family and gonna support my food while I’m with them. Sweet!

So how could i just go there and have fun when he is supporting me, so I’m gonna repay him by being a good intern and help him around in his pharmacy as much as i could. With his help i already save thousands of ringgit Malaysia . Even USM wont spent that on me cause I’m USM’s stepdaughter. LOL. Luckily, Mr Wendt supported me, so I will repay him back lor ;p

Anyway, i will be in Germany for a month and another 3weeks++ to visit my relatives in UK and to jalan2 a bit.. Well this time, I’m gonna make sure my face in every damn photos. Cause the last time i went, I’m hardly in any of those photos. This is the problem when you are not the ‘cam-whoring’ type and traveling alone. This time pun alone jugak pfft but i know some tricks now ;p wait for it ya!

So, im not sure yet where i wanna go but got something in my mind, STAMFORD BRIDGE and CHERRIES ;p hahahahaha

fuhhh in a few days and i will be off to Europe for the second time, I’m so gonna make sure its gonna be Awesome than before ;p

I’m actually worried about my research and the research of the Postgrad student that I’m helping. I hope we can manage it. I hope Kak Yanti will stay strong.

Fuuhhh next semester , already gonna enter my final year. This semester was awesome! I’m so happy with everything. As i said there will always be a rainbow after rain in sun.

But i know it wont last long, somehow i know i will need to face another stormy rain and freaking hot sunshine. I hope that time i will have a proper umbrella ;p a big one lol..

take care my dear blog and who ever reading it.

p/s:

i think my blog would be active for awhile during this holiday. will update when i have the time ;p

Its been a while..

We get hurt. We heal. We survive. We become stronger.

Somehow while healing we lost some parts that makes who we are before.

We might be a fool before but now we are getting smarter..hmm..i guess.

Perhaps for the better.

We might be a fool before but we learnt our mistakes and we rise above all pain and we move forward to a brighter and promising future.

shit.. i don’t know what the hell am i talking about now..

Its been really confusing lately.

Struggling between choices and different plans..

Between dreams and reality.

Somehow i keep confusing myself and worry about the future aheads..

What i want seems to be contradicted with the reality that i need to face..

Am i too greedy?

I guess i am.

i guess i gotta choose, but im too afraid to make the move.

well..i think i already made the move but somehow i keep looking back at the other choice..

Would the other choice be better?

Am i going the right pathway..

yeah..

someone told me this:

“if you are OK and you are good with what you had decided, why bother to look back, keep moving forward and stick to it but if you see a wall infront of you then only you quickly turn back”

fuhh… lots of things in my mind..and im tired just thinking about it.

I guess if this is my destiny. I will live with it even though it might now be exactly the type of life that i want but its better than nothing.