confusion or unlucky..

hmm.. confuse? unlucky?..mybe both..
i know what i want..but what i want usually hard to get..
i want somethng that not meant for me..
but something that i dun want.. sometimes there..but sometimes they come n go..
cause i dun let them stay..

when i found the one..
the others start coming too..
when the one starts fade..
the others faded too..