ngeee =)

exams...
patut risau, sedih,marah,geram,kecewa...
tapi aku?..
aku relax..
dun get me wrong..
relax bukan bererti..
aku sgt well prepared..
this is a disease..
aku tak sepatutnye relax..
coz..damn it..this exam is about my future..
n i dun give a damn about it..
ni x betol lansung!!
aku sepatutnye stady n really focus tuk exam ni..
padahal this sem suppose to be the sem that i make it above 3 to cover up sem 1..
tapi all i had done for this sem..
maen..maen..maen..dan maen lagi..
awal2 sem asek kuar men2..
hjg sem (dekat nk exam)..
drama..movie..drama..n drama lagi..
even exam week im still watching drama like hell..
haih...
ape dah jadi snrnye sem ni..
bile recall balik..sem ni..penuh ngan maen..
bile org tanye..aku kate buzy..
bile pk balik pe yg aku bz..
oOooOo..esaimen..hmm
yup esaimen..awal2 jela..
mmg buzy..
tpi stady??
nope..i never busy studying..
bile x busy esaimen..ak busy men2 n tgk drama..
haih..
ni aku taip2 sme2 ni pon..kesedaran nk stady tul2 tu xde lagi..
act..nk compare aku nye style stadi..aku dah kire mkn byk bace buku la compare dr dulu..
tpi..x cukup..
farmasi bukan satu course yg kene ngn gaye hidup aku..
aku bukan ulat buku..
aku bukan passionate tuk wat ubat..
aku bace notes..tpi reading notes is not enough..
sape2 yg amekPNS n dosage form cthnye..
ce korang tgk past year..ade direct pade notes ke soklan die bagi..
actually kene ade extensive reading n understanding ttg mende ni..
mnde ni bukan stakat stady n pass exam je..
kite mmg kene phm n masuk tul dlm hati dan otak..
this is where minat ttg course ni amek peranan..
mmg aku ley stady n pass..
tpi..can i be a good pharmacist??
aku masuk farmasi kenape ek..
haih..
now i can see the real picture..
aku nmpk perkare ni tuk medic je..
tpi aku x sngke farmasi cam medic..
aduii..
but lucky x jump into medic..
nyaris2 gak..
if aku tul2 minat la ngn farmasi ni..
aku se i will work really hard for it..
aku xkn aim tuk pass je
aku akn aim the best..
now i wonder whats goin to happen with my carier in the future..??
hmmm...
well..stady je la tuk pass,..hope along the way..aku figure out ape aku nk sbnrnye..
now..just jgn drop out from the course..
itu sesuatu aku x mungkin biarkn terjadi..
sbb i do want to make it right..just minat tu xde je..
aku no prob tuk stady n pass..
tpi..will i ever be satisfied with what i had done..
my goal is unclear..
that is why im tooo relax i guess..
i know i can pass..so i take it for granted..
now i dont know wether i can pass for this exam or not..
coz im being too relax..if aku fail..mmg totally slh aku la...aduiii
coz im too relax this whole semester..
sem lepas atleast aku reti nk risau gak..
sem depan?..haih enth la..
huhhuhuhuhuhuuuuuu

phewwww..
enth pe la aku merepek..
but ni la dlm otak aku skrg..
aku x risau..cme aku terpk..
nape aku x risau ek..
n i think i know the answer..
hahahaha..
SILA RISAU YE CEK ELYANA..!!

p/s: even dah tulis ni pon aku nye kerisauan tu xde lagi...im soo dead..apesal smooth je hjg2 sem..i guess i miss my prob-buzy-life..ki3x..=)